Izinkan Ku Pergi

Saje amik title tuh tapi lirik lagu Kaer tuh tak satu pun sangkut ngan situasi yg aku alami skrg nih. Tinggal beberapa hari saje lagi aku akan berada di sini. Ermmm maksud aku bukan lah hari2 terakhir di blog nih tapi hari2 terakhir di syarikat dimana aku sedang bekerja pada dan waktu ini. Lepas je aku submit tender ari tuh terusss jek zassssssss .... hilang segala kudrat rasa nak buat keje. Bukan ler kata aku tak sabau nak start keje kat tmpt baru, nak kata tak sabau nak tinggalkan tempat sekarang nih pun takde laa sesangatnye. Cumanya terus jek takde rasa nak buat keje gitu ... bulehhh gitewww ...

Aku plan mang aku nak buat proper handover to those yg akan memikul package tugas yg aku ada skrg nih tapi last2 satu happer pun tak jadik. Aku tak leh pikir, really .. mang tak leh nak pikir cemana nak buat. Cam kepala aku dah kena virus abis sumer blank ... seblank yg blank laaa ..

So dari sehari ke sehari aku datang keje for the sake of datang keje. Datang keje... then balik keje. Actually kekadang tuh aku terpikir gak (nih time aku tak blank laa .. or maybe kepala aku blank on bab2 keje jer kot ) agaknya lepas kejadian yg aku ada letak kat entry bawah tuh, CPU kat kepala aku tetiba jek terus reformat and letak program baru which is ... tak yah buat apa2, dah org tak appreciate nko so just come to work and when the time comes you go back home. Hmmm dasat gak CPU kepala aku nih, buat program yg overwrite sumer program2 yg ada selama bertahun dlm otak nih. (hahahaha alasan jek tuh ... )

Tapi truthfully speaking laa .. mang aku kesian ngan org2 sekeliling yg keje kuat, kena stayback nak siapkan keje, dan the person yg kena takeover keje2 aku tuh. Tapi nya ntah kenapa tetiba aku jadik sekejam nih. Buat dunno jek. Mang langsung tak mengofferkan diri utk menolong. Aku pun pelik kenapa jadik camtu, cos that is not me pun sebelum nih. Huaaargggggggghhhh naper aku jadik cenggini. Kuat betul penangan angin ribut tender aku nih rupernya.

So aku betul2 nak mintak maaf laa pada those yg kena tempias ribut tender aku nih (w/pun aku tau dorg tak baca punya entry kat blog aku nih.. hahaha). Ada 3 hari lagi untuk aku buat aktiviti datang dan balik keje nih. Aku harap aku tak de laa menyusahkan dorg sesangat. Tapi kalau pun menyusahkan, well apa2 pun they have to do it.

My time here is near the exit corner already. For 7 years i've been loyal to this company and it came to my mind once that i will sign my retirement in this company. But time change and life also change and there are wind of change coming towards me and bring me along with it. I cannot resist this wind so i follow it to the new place it put me. I do hope my current colleague the very best of luck for their work here and in their lives also.

To my dearest frens (and maybe foes) i will always remember the time we spend together. The good and bad things that appear during those time together. Those are really precious things to me. (Haaaa .. rasa nak nangis nih). Life goes on my frens, eventhough i'm not here anymore, we still can set time to meet each others. (Especially geng satu tag tuh kan .. u know who u are). Hope you wont forget me.

Till then bye ols.

Sesungguhnya

Aku tau ler aku dah tender. Aku tau ler aku hanya mengira hari utk mengakhiri episod di sini. Tapi tuh laa .. disebabkan mende2 tuh sumer .. aku jadik tak de semangat je nak buat keje sini. Cemana nak atasi nih sumer auk sesungguhnya tak tau.

Moving forward

Lama aku mencari .. mostly yg dekat2 area umah aku lah. Tak larat laa nak menempuh jam hari2. Minyak lak cepat je abis. Dengan tol lagi. Sumer2 kos tuh makin membimbangkan aku. Paling tak larat tuh nak menempuh jam setiap hari laa. Mana taknya, aku rasa aku nih makin tua dah, bawak keta pun dah tak larat, tak awas. Kuar umah pepagi utk sampai ke opis tepat or sebelum pukul 8.15 tuh membuatkan aku selalu mengantuk bila bawak keta.

Nak naik public transport??? Hehehe .. tak yah ler. Sama je lambatnya dgn bawak keta sendiri. Cuma drive sendiri lebih comfortable laa, leh dgr radio (Pagi Di ERA), tak bersesak2 dgn org lain (eventhough sesak ngan keta org lain) dll. Tapi tuh laa keadaan kesihatan yg semakin tak secergas masa muda dulu (ehhh dah tua sgt ke aku nih) membuatkan aku rasa malas dah nak keje masuk center KL nih. Tuh pasal aku memulakan aktiviti menyekodeng keje2 lain yg agak dekat dgn umah aku.

Then ... this month .. akhirnya ... i made it.. I received job offer yg memenuhi kriteria yg aku cari ..

• Dekat dengan umah
• Better benefit offer
• Better monthly income (hehehe ... )

Cuma yg penting tuh dekat, so that aku boleh laa kuar rumah bilamana matahari dah menunjukkan diri didada langit. Balik tuh aku rasa sama je cam sekarang, kalau tak byk keje balik on time, kalau byk keje terpaksa laa balik lambat. Cuma sebab dia dekat even kalau aku balik lambat, still i can manage it.

Lega rasanya dapat this job offer. Alhamdulillah ke hadrat tuhan kerana disebalik kesukaran yg aku hadapi di tempat sekarang nih, mungkin itu lah dia hikmah nya. Mulai 19hb March 2007, insyaallah aku akan memulakan tugas di tempat baru.

My Journey With The Company Ends Here ..

I started my work in this company on March 01, 2000. Then they put me in ABB project for 4 years. I met many people and became friends with some of them eventhough i think i didn't have any foes during that project period. People come and go and i still in the same place same job. I was then pull out from that project and put into other project (GSB) in 2004. New things in term of job skill but still the same job scope. Met new people again, the customers, the colleagues. Some are friendly and some are not.

In 2005 i was placed in the new project (FDS), the one that is for me the most challenging user environment. But thanks to the previous job experience on the earlier project that makes me hanging tough with it hold on with the project up till now. During the ding dong period, i have to take leave because of maternity .. when i come back i was put into the sub-project. A new application that is different from my previous experience but i accept it as a new knowledge to me. Later on when there is shortage of resource in the main project, i was asked to join in again and most of the time my involvement occured in helping other staf with their main task/focus group task.

I want one big task for myself but since the mgmt had put me in the pool resource, well that is the task that i've been done. Doing multitasking. But the thing that make me sad, i've been helping all those people but the mgmt didn't see my contribution. As if i'm not doing anything. As if i come to work, then just waiting for the clock to click on 5.15 and go back home. Yes i always go back on time. But between that time, i've been doing the job that was given to me. Just because i did not stay back until 9 or 10 pm in the evening, they can judge me by saying that i did'nt contribute to the project.

I know i will leave this place in a week, but the situation really make me feel sad. For 7 years i've been working in this company, for all those contribution i made, they never said thanks to me and just treat me like i'm not there like i'm useless. What a way for me to leave .......

Well ... if that is the way they want me to leave .. then .. i will ... i will come to work .. not doing anything .. then go back home when the time comes up. Puas ati ..

Re-Activate

Setelah sekian lama tahun 2007 tiba, blog nih tetap bersarang macam sarang labah2 ... so hari ini aku dengan besau hatinya akan mengACTIVATEkan semula blog ni. Penat aku buat proses pembersihan rumah sampai abis sumer aku buang. Takpe lah kan .. nak bagi bersih sebersihnya nih. So lepas nih harap2 akan kuar laa pelbagai topik di blog nih.