Alhamdulillah ... March gives us blessing

I would like to say that this year, so far is really a good and blessing year. Even though we were test with so many hurdles but again, he give us blessing in our lives. We received a good news yesterday evening and confirmed it today.

What i can say this month is a balance month for us. The journey begins with our lost of MIL but near the end, we get the good news of my half get employed again. So i do hope that the future will be fine and that more good news is yet to come. Insyallah ... amin.

Time to think ...

Hmmm ... after gone through some of latest story of my frens .. i decided to sort of "muhasabah diri". Sorry to those that i might hurt or accidentally feeling hurts with my behaviour. Belief me, i'm not the one who easily forget those who helps me during my bad times. You can count on me if you need helps and advice to go through during your bad times. Sorry that i might ignore some of my closest frens lately.

From the deep of my heart .. again ... Sorry dear ...

Dan Sebenarnya - By Yuna

I like this new artist and her songs. Baru gone thru 2 of her songs but already fell in love with her voice. Hope some of you who does not know her yet can share this lovely music and voice with me .....

Enjoy ...........




Yuna-Dan Sebenarnya

oh bulan
jangan layan diriku lagi
pabila,
air mata membasahi pipi
dan lagu2 di radio seolah2 memerli aku
pabila,
kau bersama yg lain
[Dan Sebenarnya Lirik]

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

ku enggan
berpura pura ku bahagia
ku enggan
melihat kau bersama si dia
oh ku akui cemburu
telah menular dalam diri
pabila
kau bersama yang lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

pabila kau merenung matanya
ku rebah,
jatuh ke bumi
di saat kau benar-benar mahu pergi
seperti ku bernafas dalam air
adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu kau juga merindui aku
oh

Sebuah Kisah Untuk Teladan ...

Aku terlanggar seorang asing semasa berjalan,
"Oh maafkan saya, saya tak perasan"

Katanya "Maafkan saya juga,
Saya tak nampak saudara"

Kami amat bersopan dan saling menghormati,
Kami saling melambai sambil berlalu pergi,

Tetapi di rumah lain pula ceritanya,
Bagaimana kita melayan orang tersayang, tua dan muda,

Lewat petang, tika memasak makan malam,
Anak lelaki kecilku berdiri di dapur secara diam-diam,

Bila berpaling aku hampir melanggarnya jatuh,
Jerkahku, "Jangan buat kacau di sini, pergi main jauh-jauh"

Dia berlalu pergi, hatinya hancur luluh dan beku,
Aku tak sedar, bertapa kasarnya kata-kataku,

Sedangku berbaring di katil mendengar musik,
Terdengar suara halus datang membisik,

"Bila bersama orang tak dikenali,
Begitu bersopan dan merendah diri,
Tetapi ahli keluarga tersayang, sering dimarah dan dicaci",

"Cubalah kau pergi lihat di lantai dapur,
Kan kau temui bunga-bungaan berterabur",

"Itu adalah bunga-bunga dibawanya untuk kamu,
Dia memetiknya sendiri, kuning, biru dan unggu",

"Dia berdiri senyap agar jadi kejutan buat kamu,
Kamu tak pernah sedar airmatanya yang datang bertamu",

Pada tika ini, aku merasa amat kecil sekali,
Airmataku mencurah ibarat air di kali,


Senyap-senyap ku kebiliknya, dan melutut di katil,
"Bangunlah, anakku, bangunlah si kecil"

"Apakah bunga-bunga ini dipetik untuk mak?
Dia tersenyum, "Adik terjumpanya belakang rumah di semak"

"Adik memetiknya kerana ia cantik seperti ibu,
ibu tentu suka terutama yang unggu,

"Maafkan ibu, atas sikap ibu hari ini,
Ibu tak harus menjerkah kamu, sebegini,

Katanya,"Oh, ibu, itu tak mengapa,
Saya tetap sayang ibu melebihi segala,

Bisikku, "Anakku, ibu pun sayang kamu,
dan ibu suka bunga itu, terutama yang unggu,


FAMILY


Tahukah anda makna "FAMILY"?
FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU

" HARGAILAH KELUARGA ANDA "

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah. At last. Yesterday i received my confirmation letter from HR. Actually the letter was sent to my HOD last week. I was MC that time. I was hoping that i can get the letter on last Friday when i came back to work. But since the HOD PA was on leave, i did not know where the letter was. So i just wait until the boss give it to me.

But actually i was the one who trick the big boss asking the whereabout of my letter. I told him HR ask me to submit the PRD form quickly. But the truth is, i want to see the letter and fill up the form quickly and submit it back to HR before end of this week. Before payday time. The main agenda is actually ... inspite of getting the confirmation .. i need to make sure and to be sure that i am elligible for the "FRUITS" that everybody keep asking me.

Insyallah ... with god wills, i hope to get the "FRUITS". And above all ... i want to say ALHAMDULILLAH, praise to ALLAH again for getting the confirmation.

The Lost ...

Last tuesday 03-03-2009, around 3.15pm i received a phone call from my husband and follow by an sms saying that my Mother-In-Law had passed away. Inspite of we actually expect the news but of course that we hope and pray that she will getting better. But i'm sure that Allah love her more so that she call her back to be with him rather than she suffered with her illnesses.

Even though i'm not too close with my MIL, but still i feel sad of this lost.

I pray to Allah to bless her soul and to seek his forgiveness for any sin that she might have in this world. Amin.

Exam ler plak ... interbiu lerr bagaiiii

Last thursday aku dapat email daripada HR saying that aku kena sit for an exam for my job confirmation. Aku mang dah tau daripada awal yang akan ada exam nih and later on follow by an interview with senior management. Tapi selama nih aku buat dekk jer and berdoa mintak2 tak ada laa mende2 nih sumer.

Last week masa my supremo panggil aku and tunjuk form pengesahan jawatan tuh aku dah mula berdebar dah.. Arghhh sudah, nak kena isi. Apa aku nak isi ekk ... So aku kais2 ler info daripada Project Charter pasal scope of work PMO nih campur2 plak ngan apa yg bos aku penah discuss ngan aku pasal scope of work yg dia nak aku buat. So aku isi jer laa form tu and pass balik kat bos. Yang best nyer ada part isi point tuh .. hok tu aku dok isi ikut suka dan juga ikut tahap penilaian aku pada diri sendiri la macamana aku buat keje selama 4 bulan nih. Aku isi jer point tinggi2 with expectation that my boss nnt panggil aku semula untuk argue kenapa aku letak point tinggi and then after nego baru ler agree nak maintain the point or reduce sket ke. Sebab biasa laa process nih bila buat appraisal dgn bos zaman doulu2. Tak sangka plak aku bos aku la ni tak panggil pun untuk nego. Dia agree jek dgn point yang aku letak tuh. Bagus betul laa bos aku ni.

Then friday comes, aku mang tak abis study pun sebab lately nih sibuk. Byk report nak kena prepare. Balik umah toksah cakap laa .. anak2 tak sihat asik nak berkepit jek. Lately nih plak petang2 asik hujan lebat jek. Jalan dah sah ler jam and sah2 ler aku dok stuck kat heavy jam KL nih. Bila sampai umah dah layu semacam.

So pagi tu sampai opis terus je selak2 kertas yang ada info related to the company. Aku baca gak laa sikit2. Pastu aku nekad je pegi je la kat HR dept tuh and bawak sekali kertas2 tu. Alaa sort of macam open book nyer exam hahahaha. Aku jumpa sorang budak nih, Nik kat HR Dept. Dia pun dulu masuk sama ngan aku and now sama2 nak sit for the confirmation exam. Then the time comes for us to sit for the exam. After HR staf tu bagi kitorang exam form and brief on what to do then she left us alone. Kami apa lagi, siap discuss apa jawapan tuh ... punya laa bagus exam nih .. ahhaha .. Mana soklan yg aku & Nik tak dpt jawap tu kami pun gunakan ler talian hayat. I call my dept PA and ask her assistant for the answer. Overall kitorang salah satu soklan jer, pasal jumlah gaji yang otomatik buat pekerja layak untuk mencarum ke SOCSO. Haaa takper laa ada 2 jek salah.

Then isnin plak datang, the day for interview. Cuak gak sebab mang tak ready langsung. Weekend tak leh cakap laa sibuknya kat umah tuh. So aku as usual tawakkal je laa apa pun soklan dorg nak tanya aku. Sampai kat HR Dept tu, ada 2 org termasuk aku nak menunggu turn. Then sampai plak Nik. Ada sorang lagi dah masuk kat bilik interbiu tuh. Punya laa lama kami tunggu dekat sejam budak tu kena ngan ahli panel. Aku and the other 2 dah mula cuak. Apa laa yang dorg nak tanya aku sampai ke sejam nih .. taun bila aku punya turn nak sampai nih .. uhuhuhu. At last pukul 12 baru sampai turn aku. Fuhhhh ... berdebau2 dah. Tapi bila masuk tu, alhamdulillah macam2 soklan yang aku dapat tapi sumernya dapat aku jawab dengan baik.

Kuar je daripada bilik interbiu tuh aku terus ler join the corum makan kat Manhattan Fish Market kat Ampang Park. Lunch treat by my X-Boss ... bulehhh ... Well orang invite takkan aku nak tolak pulak kann .. nanti apa kata dia pulak.

So .. gitu ler citernyer serba sikit pasal path yg aku kena lalu nak confirm kat company nih. Semoga aku dapat keputusan yang baik .. hehehe .. aminnn ...