Jiwa Kacau

Today morning rasa amat ler letih dan penat, rasa sekejap sgt cuti weekend. Tak sempat merasa hari Sabtu dan Ahad tetiba dah balik semula hari Isnin. Sabtu n Ahad tu cam sekelip mata jek. Always cross to my mind to just resign and stay home, at one point mang its really good to have more time with the kids during this raising up time tp on the other hand tak leh laa benti gitu2 jek coz i need to have some site income if i resign from my current job. Dulu dah penah benti keje 6 bulan. Mang agak tak menarik kalau dok rumah tanpa income.

Bila tanya my other half "Bila laa boleh benti keje nih, tak larat laa nak bangun pepagi get ready g keje ... bla .. bla.. bla..". His only reply "Jual rumah ni, beli umah lebih kecik leh aarr benti keje".. Hmm thats not the answer i wanna hear. Sedih gak bila dpt answer camtuh.

Keje plak makin lama makin too pack. Stress pun datang skali. This month i have to stay back due to new project. Lama dah tak buat keje stayback2 ni. Nak kena buat semula ni mang agak berat lagi plak dok pikir anak2 yg kecik2 tu. Dah ler lately nursery buat hal. I dun think amik maid will solve this problem. So option buat masa ni, mang letak dorang dulu kat situ. Mb aarr bulan depan cam move them out to a new place. Dilemma lagik nih.

Sampai bila aarr leh bertahan ni ... dilema lagi kah .. have to search again kahh .. apa kahh ..